December 2011
1 post
absolutes...
It’s weird, I like to think of myself as very free spirited in the sense where I think almost everything is relative. Yet lately, i’ve been finding myself very emotionally affected when I start reading too much into something because I almost want an absolute answer. For example all these usage of “maybes”, “try”, “sometime”, “possibly”...
November 2011
2 posts
if i die...
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. If i die, will anyone know?
I know it seems morbid and sad, but I tend to keep such a distance from people that I feel like no one would. Maybe half a year would have to pass before someone figures it out. That seems like a little too long.
Life is valuable, but is mine?
people who don't do, talk.
Even though I know it is so obvious that life isn’t fair, but I think it’s still close to hard to not let that effect you. And it shouldn’t. I think if we start letting the concept of unfairness be part of everyday life and just “how things are”, this is not the life to be living in. To me fairness, has always been one of the strongest characteristic I admire and...
July 2011
2 posts
all these deaths lately.....
and none are really accidental or natural. I feel like more and more people don’t care to live. No drive to live and loss of hope perhaps? Where’s that will? That strength?
Maybe to die is just easier? Yet, seems like a very selfish and weak move. Quitter mentality.
Feel very saddened by this. And I thought us humans were meant to have more resilience.
We need more stories on...
knot in my stomach
I didn’t realize that was going to be the last time….
noone forewarns you of these things and you have to somehow live with that and continue on. how? why?
so we don’t get a second chance? this unfairness just keeps playing over and over in my head.
June 2011
5 posts
how many is too many?
I decided to spend this morning reading some old blogs and was wonderfully and strangely inspired by my past thoughts and observations. it feels good.
http://eloise-observations.blogspot.com/
The soft whispers are becoming louder
Often I find myself alone, I feel I no longer want that, but that may be my destiny. Solidarity was once my virtue, now it’s showing me that we were made to live with others and that transition is proving contradictory.
To find someone that beats at the same rate, I imagine would be exhilarating. spiritual. inspiring. fundamental in giving life that spark.
how do you destroy those guards...
Child's smile / laughter
A child’s smile/laughter is the greatest thing in the world. It can seriously take all worries and sadness away.
Food...
Will b the death of me. Gonna start eating better once I get back to ny.
back from Venice. i'm alive.
Just got back from Venice, Italy. Ammaaazzzzzz-ING! I will play around with some pix i took and if they’re good enough to post….they will be coming!!
May 2009
3 posts
Have u noticed we spend a huge part of our time just waiting
I often forget how quiet the city can get when ur in ur zone
